By Sarah Bush
I was not ready to write my blog this month.
The due date was before me and I had not even thought about it. There are seasons of what feels like a reality T.V. show called Overload. We have had more sickness this year than ever before, trying to plan for my husband’s open heart surgery and travel, planning our daughter’s wedding, a family reunion for my Grandmother’s 90th birthday, homeschool, doctor’s appointments, out of town company, sending out small group emails, laundry to fold, and a thousand other things that all seem to be swirling around me. All things I need to do, all things I should do, all things I can’t ignore, and all things that require effort on my part.
This isn’t unique to just me though, is it? This is most of us. Sometimes for a season. Sometimes for years.
There is stress on the job, demands on our time, service to partake in, missionaries to pray for, errands to run, health issues to attend to, church ministry to do, note cards to write, children to disciple, burdens to carry with friends, meals to cook, and on and on it goes. It doesn’t end. If we are really partaking in what God has called us to it probably won’t end until we are before the throne basking in the glory of our Lord and Savior.
When I find myself scurrying around trying to do all that life requires in my own strength and efforts, I find myself anxious, defeated, edgy, complaining, and failing in everything. Any of this sound familiar? My eyes are on what I can do, what I need to do, what I can’t do. In spiritual exhaustion , I finally collapse before the Father (about 30 minutes before I sat down to write this).
As I let go of all my efforts and lay it all down, suddenly there is quiet. Though tears silently flow from my eyes, they are not ones of defeat and weariness. They are ones of being overwhelmed in the most blessed of ways.
As I dwell on who my Father, my God, my King, my Savior is, everything else slowly starts to fall in line. My view of myself, my tasks, my efforts all take a back seat as HE takes the forefront. As I speak His truth to myself, peace seeps into my heart, soul, and mind. My Creator made me for today (Psalm 139:13). He made me for the tasks He has laid before me (Eph 2:10). Therefore, He will equip me and strengthen me (Heb 13:21). I must keep my eyes on Him as I walk, and off of myself (Psalm 16:8). Before the foundation of the world He knew where I would be today, how I would struggle, and how I would fail. All that I am was made for this time and place (Ecc 3:1-8). For this church, for this neighborhood, for these children, for this man, for this culture, for these good works, and for these trials.
He makes no mistakes, and if I really believe in His sovereignty, then I can rest even while I work out my salvation. I can rest even though I am obedient to the good works He has prepared for me. I can rest though countless things swirl around me with uncertainty. Rest won’t be found when my tasks are done, lists marked off, and my life is all calm and in control. I can rest because it is finished. I can rest because of who He is and what He has done. I can rest because He is faithful, gracious, and merciful (Ex 34:6). I can rest because He is just, He is sovereign, and He is my righteousness (Psalm 90:2). I can rest because He is seated upon the throne as ruler over all (Rev 4:9). I can rest because this Almighty Creator and Sustainer God (Col 1:16-18) loves me with a love like no other.
May we all continue to grow in the knowledge of our amazing God through the revelation of His written word, and may this knowledge of who He is change how we see life, and how we live in it. If you find yourself struggling, weary, anxious, or defeated, I pray that you will take your eyes off yourself and all that is going on around you and lay before the throne. May you rest in who God is, what He has done, and what He is going to do.
Sarah and her husband, Kevin, have five children and serve in missions and fellowship group ministries.